#58: It seems we’re human after all

The panto has been and gone, and you can see me hoofing about a bit here if you have me added on Facebook and have the “Video” application. I’m the guy who comes on stage after the dog and then dances at the very left-hand side of the video. If you don’t have me added on Facebook, search for “Gus Luxton” in the London network. My picture is of me posing in a mirror in a stripey shirt and pinstripe trousers.

My birthday (last Wednesday, December 12th) was brilliant - many thanks to anyone who sent me birthday wishes by any medium at all! Being 23 is a little scary though. I logged into last.fm a couple of days ago to look at my recommendations and it came up “Male, 23, Hertfordshire” at the side… I actually had to do a double take as I realised that I was old.

I am seriously looking forward to Christmas and having some time off work. I enjoy my job and it’s been very rewarding of late, but I am shattered and just need a week or so off to actually draw breath and get back to feeling human again.

Sorry for the short sentences and the formal style - I’ve just updated Livejournal for the first time in about two months with an absolutely massive post, and I don’t have much wordiness left in me.

It’s the Secret Santa at work tomorrow, and I have to say that some of the people upstairs are absolutely ruining it. They watch the present box like hawks, and as soon as anyone brings a present up, they’ll run over and check who it’s for so that they can make a note of who bought what for who, and hold them accountable at a later date. For those who aren’t familiar with the concept of Secret Santa, it’s where you put everyone in an office/club/group’s name in a hat and randomly draw one each, so you get someone to buy a Christmas present for. There’s a budget of £5 in our office, and the (unofficial) idea is usually to get embarassing or amusing gifts. The main point of the whole thing is that you don’t tell anyone else who you have, though - that’s why it’s a “secret” Santa and you can get away with buying some very amusing things indeed. I am currently devising a scheme where I will be able to get my gift into the present box without them noticing.

I met up with Xsara this evening for the first time in a while. She’s doing alright and looking well. I thought she’d disappeared off the face of the earth but no, I was wrong. It’s a good job I didn’t eBay the DVDs she left at my house like I was planning to…

#54: “You feel deprived…”

I think it was Robbie Williams who wrote “All the best women are married/all the handsome men are gay”.

It’s pretty true, you know. The girls I like when I look at them are always in relationships or generally “with” other people - what’s the deal with this?

I’ve heard it said before that you are instantly more attractive to the opposite sex when you are in a relationship yourself (either that, or getting regular sex from somewhere) so maybe that’s just what’s getting me here - perhaps I am just doomed to only fancy girls I can’t have? :P

(And yes, I know I’m not the first person to have had this thought, and I also know I won’t be the last. It just needed to be said)

#42: “Emotional bollocks”

I don’t have time for women who can’t or won’t communicate. Getting left standing around when you’re supposed to be meeting them is just totally unacceptable - I wouldn’t mind if you can’t be arsed with a relationship any more, or if you’d rather fuck your ex or something, but you could at least tell me about it.

#35: Awesome

The subject is the best word I could think of to describe exactly what this weekend has been - “awesome”.

Xsara and I spent over 24 hours together on Saturday and Sunday, and it was the happiest I’ve been in quite a while. We did loads of coupley things - went shopping, watched DVDs, went to see a sketch show, ate takeaway pizza, cuddled, kissed, and did lots of other things… and it was absolutely brilliant. She stayed at my house on Saturday night and it was just incredible - to be so close to someone who you have such strong feelings for is amazing. Waking up with your arms around a beautiful girl who makes you smile and feel so warm inside is the one of the best feelings I’ve ever had.

If you could see the smile on my face at the moment, you’d be dazzled.

Don’t worry, I’m still a geek ;-)

#31: Dates

So… I went on a date last night.

I know what you’re thinking - “OMG blogger in love life shocker”, right? Well, it was actually a second date, as the nerve-wracking “first date” was on bank holiday Monday a week and a bit ago. It all went really well, we went to the cinema to see “Zodiac” (there was a reason for that, but I won’t go into it) and cuddled and ate nachos, and generally everything was fantastic.

The film was good for about an hour and a half, then it just got boring. It lasted nearly three hours and that was a good hour and a bit longer than it needed to. It wasn’t so bad though, I was just glad to be there with my arm around a beautiful girl, giggling and whispering to each other. I’m not sure when we’ll see each other next, but it’ll definitely be soon.

At some point, I might post the story of how we met, because I think it’s quite amusing. I’ve promised myself that this is a geek’s blog though, and so it’ll stay geeky and not get all loved-up and sappy.

I promise :)